because this chapter is coming to an end.

hello lovelies,
how are you?


for those who thought that i've died,
don't worry.
i'm very much breathing, alive and still eating ;)


as many can see and have known,
i've been having some lovely entertainment on the left side of my blog :)
can't really update much now, since i don't want to be unrighteously scrutinized for nothing. and also because i've been happily bonding with Facebook. *grins*


but what i know is that lyricalsteps is going to come to an end very soon.


i've had a good 3 years + friendship with this beloved e-journal of mine. and i think its time for me to move on and try something new *wipes dripping mascara*
i might be moving on to tumblr next, plus an actual journal for me to write more personal thoughts and things.


hopefully i update after Port Dickson! :D
happy holidays, all!

You and The Conversation

Yellow- Vitamin String Quartet

because we rejoice.

thou shall stop using plastic bottles because they are made of polyethene!
they can KEEL YOUUUH

on a rather related note,

happy merdeka fellow friends :D

Part Of The List- NeYo

TIME
TO KILL THE CHEMISTRY BABYY

because its difficult.

is it just me,
or do people who get older just get crankier?
and i'm talking in terms of hours, not years

i've never ever been the type who doesn't care.
never.


and i never find it easy to ignore rude remarks, kurang ajar tones and blatantly stupid behaviour. even when it doesn't involve myself. call me penyibuk if you may, but it really does tick me off to quite a high level. so, the thing is, i don't know if i should learn to ignore and let wrong situations be wrong, or harden my head even more to fight against something that i believe is not right and not supposed to go on.


if i learn to ignore,
that only makes me like everyone else.
not willing to bring about change, just following the flow of normality.


if i decide to harden my head,
it goes against my other principle,
which is to always respect people who are years ahead of me.


that brings me to another question.
where do you draw the line between just lowering your head and accepting people for just how they are, and bravering yourself to voice your opinion towards someone whose beliefs you don't agree with?
























on a separate note,
i need to do more Chemistry exercises.
i am simply getting too cocky.

happy birthday LeeMeiYing and TangSiuWern!
i love both of you so the very the much :D

Use Somebody- Paramore

'cause we got to change.

today i suddenly feel elevated.
i felt the need to speak, to talk to people i don't often talk to, to acknowledge the ones that are the silent wallflowers in my world.


i used to have a nasty habit of analyzing details,
and then mock myself because of the advantages that people have over me, but also quietly pat myself on the back because of the advantages i have over them.




i feel changed.
not entirely, but most definitely.





today, during the sermon which i arrived in time for,
i found myself engaging passionately in the message that Pastor Ong was preaching to us. many of the things that he has been talking about recently happen to be very mind opening and enlightening ( for myself ). today, he spoke about how many Christians reach their destination, but don't fulfill their destiny.



i am not speaking in reference to anyone, not even myself, but he is indeed very true. logically, what is the point of constantly talking about bringing more people to Christ when one doesn't live in the ways of our Lord? sure; it IS GREAT to preach and spread the gospel but if in the process, we lie, we practice fraud, we dismiss other important things like family and loved ones... how does that make us any bit Christian?

on a more relevant note for youth,
we bitch, we blabber, we complain, we gossip...
what sort of image are we portraying to the world as His believers?

we focus so much on booking a spot for ourselves in heaven,
until we forget to live in His ways during our time on this earth.


the reason why i found this message enlightening was because i never saw bringing-more-people-to-Christ as my destiny as a Christian. i got confused along the way and my belief system nearly broke because i saw and experienced many friends who seemed to have focused on that with more importance, instead of first, trying to live righteously.


please don't get me wrong,
and think that preaching the gospel is unnecessary.
it is only something that i will do successfully one day when my faith and belief in Him is of top notch, and when i am finally ready to exemplify myself as the right example of a believer.

right now,
i am still a piece of forming clay,
not fully shaped yet,
and simply not ready yet.

with this,
i pray that all my brothers and sisters can rethink and reshift our focuses. that if we have focused on our destination so much instead of our destiny, we can take time to change these wrong mindsets of ours and always remember to exemplify You and the ways that You have lived while you were on this Earth. then only can we be successful in the things we do because we have allowed You to work amidst us.


Misguided Ghosts- Paramore